Saturday, January 24, 2009

Junkie

I'm falling fast
Oh God, I'm falling faster
I can't catch myself
Because I'm falling quicker

And everyday, I fall deeper
In every way, the slope gets steeper
I can't keep myself above the breaking point
I can't keep myself away from the shoreline
I'm committing a formal suicide with my actions
But the suicide is less of a death and more of a rebirth
I feel happier than I've ever been
I feel better now than I could of then
I don't want to give up what I've come to have
And no one can make me give up my better half

I've injected myself with something I quit
For a year and a half I was sober from it
But now I've fallen back into the habit
I now know that I can't live without it

I thought I was stuck in a hole
I volunteered to get guidance from above
And look who it brought in my life
Someone who filled my syringe with love

And I'm falling fast
Oh God, I'm falling faster
I can't catch myself
Because I'm falling quicker
But I don't care
I'll deal right now
Cause I'm diving in this ocean
straight off of the bow
I'm cascading hastefully
Oh God, I'm drowning deeply
I don't want to catch myself
Because I'm overdosing

3 comments:

Mana Moon Studios said...

This is fabulous Jess and I'm so happy for your "addiction".♥

Jesse said...

thanks mom, I finally got back into writing more frequently again, I always get writer's block in sections, but I posted something before this and I accidentally deleted it and can't get it back. but it's okey, it wasn't really poetic, just...observational.

Mana Moon Studios said...

Oh it probably wasn't meant to be then kiddo. You could check your "Edit Posts" in your "Dashboard" though and it may still be there. ;-)

You're always such an amazing writer and I'm so glad to see you writing again. I'm so very proud of you!♥

Say "hi" to that sweet girl of yours.