Saturday, January 24, 2009

Junkie

I'm falling fast
Oh God, I'm falling faster
I can't catch myself
Because I'm falling quicker

And everyday, I fall deeper
In every way, the slope gets steeper
I can't keep myself above the breaking point
I can't keep myself away from the shoreline
I'm committing a formal suicide with my actions
But the suicide is less of a death and more of a rebirth
I feel happier than I've ever been
I feel better now than I could of then
I don't want to give up what I've come to have
And no one can make me give up my better half

I've injected myself with something I quit
For a year and a half I was sober from it
But now I've fallen back into the habit
I now know that I can't live without it

I thought I was stuck in a hole
I volunteered to get guidance from above
And look who it brought in my life
Someone who filled my syringe with love

And I'm falling fast
Oh God, I'm falling faster
I can't catch myself
Because I'm falling quicker
But I don't care
I'll deal right now
Cause I'm diving in this ocean
straight off of the bow
I'm cascading hastefully
Oh God, I'm drowning deeply
I don't want to catch myself
Because I'm overdosing